shinji, you fucker (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
imusntrunaway) wrote2023-01-02 11:10 pm
imusntrunaway) wrote2023-01-02 11:10 pm
IC >> INBOX (EXSILIUM)
The person you are trying to call is not available. Please leave a message after the beep.
[Beeeeeeeeeeeep.]
The person you are trying to call is not available. Please leave a message after the beep.
[Beeeeeeeeeeeep.]
[Shintaro looks a little shaky anyway as he picks his spoon back up.]
I see. Then, your earth..?
I see. Then, your earth..?
[sigh]
My sister sings. Her CD wasn't out yet but someone recorded her show once so made that into an mp3. before.
um. TMR?
[REAL EMBARRASSED RIGHT HERE. but for some reason honest.]
My sister sings. Her CD wasn't out yet but someone recorded her show once so made that into an mp3. before.
um. TMR?
[REAL EMBARRASSED RIGHT HERE. but for some reason honest.]
[He notices that.]
... it wasn't yours. You don't have to [act] be sorry.
... it wasn't yours. You don't have to [act] be sorry.
She's a musician? That's really impressive.
... TMR?
... TMR?
... Not really. I'm not sorry about it, unless you wanted me to be.
I was just thinking, how'd I feel if that happened to mine.
I was just thinking, how'd I feel if that happened to mine.
An idol. I guess she's pretty popular.
don't ask about it. it's a band.
don't ask about it. it's a band.
[He shakes his head at the first statement. He hates faked sympathy.]
I can't go back to mine because... something happened. [A clarification:] It wasn't because of the UE.
I can't go back to mine because... something happened. [A clarification:] It wasn't because of the UE.
Really? It must be hard being the brother of an idol... [Maybe that's why he didn't attend school...]
I wasn't going to ask until you said that.
I wasn't going to ask until you said that.
[He won't be getting much of it from Shintaro.]
... I see.
[He looks away for a few seconds, clearing his thoughts. He doesn't have to think about that world around Shinji, then. Stop, stop, he tells himself. Then he looks back at Shinji.]
I won't ask any more. Sorry.
... I see.
[He looks away for a few seconds, clearing his thoughts. He doesn't have to think about that world around Shinji, then. Stop, stop, he tells himself. Then he looks back at Shinji.]
I won't ask any more. Sorry.
It doesn't follow her home. She'd always call me an idiot and avoid me, anyway.
[not even answering the second part anymore nope]
[not even answering the second part anymore nope]
[He's glad the conversation topic's moving away from his home. Some of the tension in his shoulders ease and his gaze softens. If he thinks about it too much... if the topic was brought up again... he might start wondering and never stop.]
It's fine. I shouldn't have brought it up.
It's fine. I shouldn't have brought it up.
[Welp okay he'll just research on his own then...]
Are little sisters usually like that? [He pities you.]
Are little sisters usually like that? [He pities you.]
... Aah, but it would suck if you stop studying for so long that you get dumb. So make sure you at least read books.
[back to square one, hopefully in another direction.]
[back to square one, hopefully in another direction.]
I don't know anybody else with a sister. Momo wasn't like that until high school but that's probably exactly the reason why. High school.
[He honestly didn't expect anyone to remember his birthday.
Later that night, there's a text.]
Thank you for the tea. They tasted great.
Later that night, there's a text.]
Thank you for the tea. They tasted great.
I do read... what about you? [It's not meant to be a challenge. It's to see if Shin's been keeping up too, while he's lecturing him about this.]
One of my friends had a sister... but she was still in elementary school. Still, I think she bossed him around a lot.
High school drops outs don't need to study.
Kidding. I go to the library every week.
Kidding. I go to the library every week.
If it's a sister thing I send pity to all of the brothers in the multiverses who have sisters.
I've been there a few times... [He can't say it's out of curiosity. It's more out of boredom--even someone as withdrawn as him can't live completely shut in with only a music player.] What sort of books do you usually read?
If it's universal, I guess that's how sisters show they care.
Anything. The history of this world, anything from other worlds, sometimes I find something similar to what I see in mine.
[Knowing the history of Exsilium doesn't change his powerlessness in doing anything in this war. Knowing about the history of other worlds, the mechanics of their technology and magic, don't have any merits to him either. So what's the point? What's it got to do with him? What can he do with all this knowledge? He tries to shove them away into a drawer in the back of his mind as he continues.]
It's just to kill time, so it doesn't matter what I read.
[Knowing the history of Exsilium doesn't change his powerlessness in doing anything in this war. Knowing about the history of other worlds, the mechanics of their technology and magic, don't have any merits to him either. So what's the point? What's it got to do with him? What can he do with all this knowledge? He tries to shove them away into a drawer in the back of his mind as he continues.]
It's just to kill time, so it doesn't matter what I read.
It's counter-intuitive, though, don't you think?
... there's books from other worlds, too?
[That was something he didn't know. And it actually stirs Shinji's interest, if only for a selfish reason. If there was a history of other worlds, would there be a history of his? Could he maybe pull a book from a shelf, flip a page and see his name--Shinji Ikari, the Third Child,murderer coward pilot of Evangelion Unit 01--scrawled in there as a footnote? Did they finally give him the praise he desperately craved...?
... no, it's ridiculous to think that in the first place. His world ended. He's supposed to focus on drowning those thoughts.]
[That was something he didn't know. And it actually stirs Shinji's interest, if only for a selfish reason. If there was a history of other worlds, would there be a history of his? Could he maybe pull a book from a shelf, flip a page and see his name--Shinji Ikari, the Third Child,
... no, it's ridiculous to think that in the first place. His world ended. He's supposed to focus on drowning those thoughts.]
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